I need a coach, a trainer. I am Atrophe Incarnate. I cannot stand up because I've never taken a stand. Now, I can see. The first time in my life, I can see. The light is harsh, glaring, painful; The light is beautiful, amazing.... this sudden, uninvited enlightening is thrilling, agonizing, tragic, inspiring....
I'm not making sense, am I?
Life. I'm talking about LIFE!!!
I am awake for the first time. The shell I grew up in, the shell they built to keep knowledge out, ignorance in (based on biblical literalism, fundamentalism, satan's world against us, God's Chosen People) THAT shell broke, shattered in 2008. I didn't mean to break it. Shit, I didn't even know it was there! All I did was invite a piece of a fragment of some information derived from a fact. That's all it took.
I've tried standing on my own but I can't. I need rainers guided by a doctor that isn't sick & trapped in some other shell.
The religion, the cult sheltered me from LIFE my entire life. Now I'm free. But I'm not free. Because I cannot walk. Not yet. I will.
I need help getting started.   17May2012