Nervous? Don't Worry Be Happy

Relief!! I've been stressing for days because of this assignment. Irrationally, since it's an easy task- or would be if my brain hadn't kept shutting down from anxiety.
This Sunday the 25th for the first time I'm the Worship Associate for my congregation at the Unitarian Universalist Church. Great! Fantastic! I'm looking forward to that. I know I won't be nervous speaking in front of everybody, because I never am as long as I have prepared material. But this is my first time as a WA. And I'm the one preparing the script. Me!! Not only do I have an inferiority complex, it's a lousy, pathetic one /(~_~)\
Today I went there to have Rev. Curtis go over the material. She did some small corrections, critiqued my oratory, and assured me I'm gonna do great! So now I have professional approval, assurance and encouragement. I don't think I'm going to be nervous from now on. I can focus on practice, I can relax. I did not know I would be fraught with anxiety while preparing. The only way to deal with it is to just go ahead. If you need to ask for help, do it!
The next time I'm WA, I'm confident I won't be as nervous. Even if I am, it's okay. Just go ahead with what I love doing.

Rejected

She was a nice looking, kinda chubby. Wasn't supposed to be any more than scrawny but with a few extra puffs, I figured, she'd fill out nicely. I like girls with a little extra.
Before we even got started she said something to me I'll never, ever forget:

BAM!!!

then she flew out of my bedroom window.
Getting rejected by real women hurts, but now plastic ones? Wtf??
My life sucks.