Geothermal body-pieces proof

Okay, here's another one of those ideas that happens only before I'm fully awake:
You know how geothermal energy works, right? When water is injected deep into the earth, steam comes back up, used for turbines to generate electricity? Okay, so if it ever happens that bits and pieces of lizard-people body parts come shooting back up with the steam then I'll give that belief some people have of a lizard people civilization living under us a little more weight. But in the meantime I'm gonna still laugh scornfully at people that actually believe that shit.
Okay. I've got a little more snooze-time left. See ya.

Presidential nightmare

I just woke up. Omfg it was a horrible dream Idk how it happened but the president of the usa was Donald Trump instead. How anyone like that can get elected is unreal. Christ it felt so real.
It makes me feel even more thankful to have Bill Gates in the white house. I know he's gonna make America great again.

I gotta wake up... :-P

Perimortem nightmare

A short story from a graphic novel arises unwelcomed into my mind:

After his father passed away a wealthy man becomes obsessed with learning what people see at the moment they are about to die. His father had been screaming, horrified by the perimortem vision he beheld. Soon after he converted part of his estate into a hospice in an attempt to unravel this mystery. In a house of dying people he believed he would have his opportunity to learn from a patient at the right moment, demanding to know what that patient was seeing.

Soon the man got his wish. And spent the rest of his life locked away in a padded cell, endlessly screaming in horror at whatever visage the living should never know.

This story is unwelcomed because it surfaced from the subconscious depths of my mind as an explanation. A stupid and cruel explanation that any halfwit knows is fiction.

My cat Snowball, my precious baby boy did not pass away peacefully as I hoped and expected. Delirium took hold as he howled and struggled against some unknown phantom danger. I held him, spoke with a gentle voice full of love and reassurance that I'm here, his Daddy is here to love him like always. His breathing stopped, his jerking ceased. I held him close for a long time before wiping away his urine, then folding two of my shirts around him. (and no, I did not think anything supernatural happened)

If I had the foresight, I would have called Dr. Hillary Hart, DVM to come to my home the previous Sunday, hours after he he had purred playfully for the last time. She would have administered euthanasia before the full brunt of his illness overwhelmed him.

I find it amazing that I'm not tormented over "letting" my child suffer so much in his last minutes of life. The previous three years eight months of happiness I gave him saves me from that torment. Beautiful, uplifting memories for which I will always be grateful.

20mar2017

Under a beautiful tree

If my Snowie was still alive, then a small part of what I've reverentially buried this morning would instead have been deposited into the litterbox, to be removed and unceremoniously dumped in the garbage. In the weeks and months ahead, I would have scooped up my sweet baby boy, my beloved cat Snowball into a succession of garbage bags to be dumped and forgotten. But as it was, I interred a mixture of MeowMix, specially-prepared egg-yoke snack, some tapwater and a few cc's of 0.9% sodium chloride medical solution under one of the most beautiful trees on UUC property, the mixture itself having been lovingly wrapped in two of my shirts, which the mixture loved to nestle upon for its naptimes back when it was in a greater state of chemical disequilibrium. And yes I talked to it, crying a few tears as I was laying my precious, beautiful mixture of MeowMix, specially-prepared egg-yoke snack, some tapwater and a few cc's of 0.9% sodium chloride medical solution, to rest.

Life is beautiful, tragic, and more than a little weird.
-Erik Smits, 13march2017

My baby boy Snowball

" Namaste: Devi Prayer, Spiritual music, gentle, calming, peaceful music, relaxing music," a 45 minute video on Youtube. I listened to it while meditating. I need that. I'm in tears right now. One of my cats Snowball is near death (kidney failure). He, his siblings and mom have been with me since the beginning of my new life, they've been so valuable

and precious, helping me heal as I start over. I was there when he took his first breath, I've been with him, with Ladybug, Dude and mother Easter every day. I'm here with him now. He will always, always be with me.
Thank you Snowie. You have done so much more for your daddy than you will ever know. I love you, Baby Boy, I love you.