No anger problems here :-)

Anger management issues. I don't have any. Not really. I've gotta remember that when I get too self-critical.

Examples: My niece's dog scooting her butt on my bed, for instance. The thought of some other person I know exploding at her, hitting her popped into my head with a "Thank Dog I'm not him!" I just have an addition to make to my laundry is all. After i spot-wash the sheet of course.

This morning some jerk had wiped dogshit from under his shoes on the outside wall of my apartment. Right next to the front door. Okay, I don't know what asshole did that or why. And I didn't care. I just poured water on the wall as I scrubbed it off with the toilet brush. Getting upset accomplishes nothing. Remedying the problem does. It didn't take much effort either.

Yes, I could get upset when a motorist comes too damn close to running me over. Why not? Someone putting my life in danger as I'm bicycling is a pretty good reason for getting pissed off. Screaming to get the fool's attention does accomplish something very important but again, why be enraged instead of irritated? I'm just glad to be alive. And to know those dangerous situations are very rare thanks to my "controlled paranoia," of assuming over half the drivers out there are texting, drinking and/or just plain distracted idiots. Without resentment. That's just the way the world is, so accept it, and calmly move on.

No matter what my cats do, It never occurs to me to get angry. Seeing my last roll of toilet paper all over the living room floor- my last roll, mind you! - tells me somebody had a great time while I was gone. Good! That's healthy! There is being annoyed too. Like having to pull Snowball out of the fridge several times a day, every day. It's not about food, it's just an OCD-addled cat and his obsession. Well, annoyed and laughing at the same time. (strange, isn't it? Opposite sentiments happening simultaneously? I think it is.) And somebody throwing up on a shirt, my bed, or some hard-to-reach-and-clean place. They don't mean to do it, it just happens.

Sitting inside the laundromat listening to two small kids chasing each other and screaming; That's irritating as hell. I was trying to read peacefully while waiting for my wash to finish but those two brats were getting on my nerves. Until it occurred to me that kittens do exactly the same thing! Sure they express their play differently, but it amounts to the same thing. And we adore watching those beautiful, precious little fur-balls pretending to kill each other! After that thought my irritation evaporated. No anger and I focused on my book. Poor mom, though, trying to do her laundry while reigning in her children to no avail. I admire people like that but I sure as hell don't envy them.

I have a lot of patience with other people but not for myself. Not good. I hate that about myself dammit!

16dec2017

Dream: Implant design

Another dream that just went on and on and on. I was trying to design a medical implant only because nobody else could be bothered with the task. I have no medical engineering experience but here I was, not knowing what I was doing but I had to do it immediately because the surgical team had already begun opening the patient's abdominal cavity. It's like I refused to wake up because this project was too demanding, the product of my feverish efforts needed to be done in less than ten minutes. I eventually gave up trying to invent the necessary design and just adapt the main features of an automobile transmission housing. The drive shaft casing will enclose the lower vertebral column, and the section that's for the gear assembly will contain whatever organ that's lost its outer connective tissues that prevents it from falling out of the patient's asshole.
The relief I felt at finishing the damn job was so gratifying. Now I can wake up to find myself sprawled out all over the place. Normally I don't write down my dreams but I worked so goddamn hard in this one because everyone else that was more qualified than me to build the fucking thing was too damn lazy to do it and I don't want it to have worked my ass off for nothing so here it is!

"Goddidit!" explains everything!

Let's say it comes to the world's attention that a passage from an ancient scroll was discovered to explain everything. The followers of this obscure religion point to that as evidence that their faith was the Only Truth all along:

"The great and timeless Huttabubu, after lowering His posterior, directed a large wind of flatulence to His candle which brought about an explosion of surpassing power and sound, and from that Big Bang everything above, below and in the world came to be."

Now that has greater explanatory power than "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth," don't you think?? It cracks me up whenever a Christian claims to know how the Universe came to be by quoting Genesis 1:1. Guys, if you don't understand something, saying Goddidit doesn't make you look smart, but saying 'I don't know' does not make you look dumb, just honest.

Make America Smart Again!

If we're to rid society of stupidity, we should start by removing all hazard warning, caution signs & labels everywhere. Then it'll work itself out.

I know everything about Omniscience

So there.

Replacing Inadequate Public Transit with Worse

#34 was running late. If I bothered to get on I would have missed the #19 connection, the next one bringing me to church just as the service ended. Before october 2016 there was no connection; bus route 19 went straight through between St Pete and Tarpon Springs. If that was running late I would have boarded regardless. But Pinellas County replaced that and many other routes with inferior ones without as much coverage. WHY???

The Pinellas Green Light referendum was rejected by voters in November 2014. It would have meant significant improvement, plus light rail service. But most people didn't want a one-cent sales tax increase. Okay, I can understand that. Most people drive, have no need of public transit. They'd spend more of their hard-earned money for something they have no use for. I was going to say it has no impact on their lives but I'm not sure that't true. Greenlight Pinellas would have meant more people able to have jobs, and better life quality. Even if a car-owner has no friends that rely on the bus it would still make a positive impact on the community he lives in, right? Maybe not by much from his vantage, but we're all concerned about the health of our local economy.

So, we didn't get to improve it this time. Okay. But how the fuck does that justify replacing one of the most inadequate public transportation systems in the US with something worse??? When voters rejected a similar measure years ago in Arizona the county didn't make changes that would punish commuters! Are city council member here a bunch of vindictive assholes or what??? OR... the stupid in politics might make room for this.... Do they believe this will encourage people to buy cars instead of riding the bus?

Nowadays the transit system in Phoenix and surrounding areas is far better than it was when I lived there. Maybe there's hope for counties here in Florida.

I need to get a moped at least  \_( °~°)_/

a Violent Cat is a Happy Cat! ^ ••^

This time it's Ladybug chewing and slicing my hands n fingers. A nice father-daughter moment. Sure it's painful to me but hey, love hurts, right?